things of little or no concern.

Please note: some things mentioned may be sad.

“Things were going along just fine.”

I would guess almost anyone might say the same, or at least something very similar. We all tend to navigate, make decisions, and cast judgments using our own terms of common sense. At least, we try to do so most of the time, and we actually believe that we are managing well by doing so. We go on day to day, smugly thinking that we’re clear and pretty accurate with our daily decisions and conclusions.

I know of many, and of course, once was, a person of such function and inner concern. Our judgments are sure, our ambitions positive, and our goals always towards the whole. I’m retired now, and since then have become even more competent, sure, and content in my own ways and thoughts. I don’t think deeply about my motives or my motivations anymore, at all anymore.  I’m competent.

In being aware as ever, I’ve become less concerned about many things, actually most things that concerned me before, when I cared so about politics, religion, trends, and other silly and useless stuff. I quickly discovered that by letting go ot things, forgetting about every little stupid new challenge that comes along, works just fine for me anymore.

I’m no longer concerned with being content, stuck in the aum or the now. I don’t have to choose to be happy. I am happy. That’s how I am, and it’s Wonderful!.  And, it’s just as well. There’s no whim to even a bother to be better, even with so much bother to seek and worry about. Not for me! The older I get, the more comfort I find in living without most everything.

My doctors tell me that this lucid, almost giddy feeling will increase and I find myself filled with, and that my outlook going forward will turn even more to ecstasy as it reaches its end.  Friends and family will come and visit, but will tend to remain mostly unnoticed in my joy.

And though they will always remain close at heart, and we may share thoughts within our minds, and be permanently instilled in one love. Still, I feel my breath slowing down, as my heart races on.  The morpine drip it is swifter. I feel an award coming soon, on its way. No more time needed! I’ll be away…

I’ll see you then. And then again, sometime soon. You need not go away. God is all around.

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